thoughts on life

first, what's with so many friends having kids? seems like all of my friends have jumped onto the train that leads to parenthood. whether intentional or by accident all of my close friends, well i guess most, have or will have a kid within the next month. i am 24, barely. my friends are my age or younger. personally, i don't feel ready or prepared to enter that realm of life. my guess is that none of them felt "prepared" or "ready" either, but apparently more than me. the thing that sucks is that with kids they don't have time to really be friends anymore. now don't get me wrong, i'm more than excited to have kids and happy that my friends are having them. i just didn't think so many would have them as young as they are. at least i'll have someone to get advice from when we start having our own.

second, i hate growing up and not having any friends anymore. seems the older i get the more detached i become with people who i used to have great friendships with and that blows. i guess that is just one of the things you lose as you get older.

next, stupid finacial aid. i hate taking out loans but there's no way i'd be able to pay for school without it, especially flying. i have a very decent job for going to school and we make enough money to meet our needs and still have some left over. don't get me wrong, i'm grateful for the job i have and the money we both make. but i hate that as i make more we get less aid for school. when i plug in my financials into our school calculator for how much our "need" will be in financial aid it comes out to like $28,000 for the next school year. and my grant $ offered went down as well as my total offer. it just doesn't make sense sometimes.

enought of my ranting for today...